I vividly remember the moment I fell wholly in love with John. He was four days old, up at three a.m. and swaddled like a little burrito. He looked straight into my eyes, and it was like he could see to my soul. I whispered “I love you” and all was right in the world.… Read More
“Dear John and Whit… I’m thrilled to be back. I’ve missed y’all SO much! I can’t wait to play tricks and games and such. But first things first, let’s shout ‘Hip Hip Hooray’! It’s time to wish John HaPpY 8tH bIrThDaY!!” Boy oh boy were the littles thrilled to wake up to find our traditional… Read More
I don’t know if the rest the girls would agree, but I think one of Daddy-O’s most common sayings is “{they / you / y’all / I} just can’t leave well enough alone”. (This comes right before “Amanda. You left your mouth running.”) Well, I heard him whispering in my ear today as I continued… Read More
So… I joined a gym over a year ago for the first time in my life. My visits are too few and far between, but that’s beside the point of this post. The point of this post is that I actually went a few weeks ago. I was strangely excited about the treadmill workout I… Read More
I wanted to start today by saying how completely overwhelmed and touched I was by your outpouring of love yesterday. After losing Matthew I was terrified that I would forget the little details of that day; that people would never even know one of the most significant things about me. So thank you for reading… Read More
Waking up on November 22 is always heart wrenching. It was on this day, six short years ago, that I delivered, held and fell in love with our stillborn son Matthew. I had a long, gruesome and painful labor and delivery, we held him for an hour, and then we went home. Without him. I… Read More
As revealed on Instagram a little while back, John’s gallery wall is up. I took a wee break from the room after that, but project: brother’s room is moving full force ahead as of today. Old Try sent me the Red Ryder print for Christmas last year and I knew the moment I opened it… Read More